a99kitten's Musings

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Today it was about 15 degrees cooler than the last 2 weeks. Heaven! Not for 1 second was I too warm. And this was with me running around between trading and steam cleaning my carpets. And then breaking down old planter barrels. And I actually got chilly this evening!

I so wish I lived some place where it never got warmer than 72 degrees. Hottest part of the hottest day in the sun – 72 degrees. Is that a place? Can someone point me to it? Adn do they have 8 months of winter? That’d be the best.

Smokey was def happier today! Wanted a longer walk. Ate more food. Was so relaxed.

We have cool weather until Saturday and then it starts warming up again until it gets back into the burning shit 80s by mid-next week.

At least the new A/C operates fabulously. I love fresh air. I love having all of my windows open. But I’ll take cool A/C air over hot air. But it sucks. While not a stupid Climate Change Nazi – the fact is humans did this. Not excluding myself (see A/C usage.)

F humans.

It’s been fairly quiet here for the last 5-6 weeks. Ever since most of the ski resorts closed in March. Yay global warming :/ I preferred last March when we both had a pandemic AND multiple blizzards.

The weekends have still been crowded but for the most part Sunday afternoon thru Thursday afternoon have been quiet traffic-wise, people-wise.

To be clear – still more crowded than they ever were before 2020 and the fear-porn bay-area crowd fleeing and coming here. And then the vacationers who don’t not fly anywhere so drive here.

But last weekend was Memorial Day. Typically the start to tourist season. Not as bad as the 4th of July through mid-August but still crap.

Now this weekend, you can hear people hooting and hollering AM, afternoon and PM (seriously FUVK Air BNB), cars racing up and down my street like it’s a fn freeway. Oh – and let’s not forget the garbage I picked up all along my walk today at the lake because HEY WHO FN CARES RIGHT?

Constant reminder that I hate humans. 99% of them. Fuck off.

During the Dot Com boom – every company had a vision, a mission, promises. As long as they secured their .com they could do anything. Until they couldn’t.

And now we compare every possible “bubble” with that (well…and with tulips but ok…) But guess what – out of those dot com bust ashes came Amazon. Google. Netflix. And others.

And really…if you were the founder of Pets.com would you not be fn pissed looking at Chewy.com every day??? Genius idea. Knew it would work. Just too early. Webvan.com? Look at Safeway.com. Blue Apron. Whole Foods via Amazon Fresh. WTF right? Just. Too. Damn. Early.

So sure…Bitcoin could likely be tether-funded crap and really worth $1. And SAFEMOON probably will not save the world. DOGE? Well…I suppose Elon can make it work if anyone can. But out of all this crap will emerge new tech, new ideas. And maybe even old/current ones will almost die but then prosper?

So are you that sure they will all die? And that crypto is a scam? And we will live forever with paper money – even after a pandemic 2020 had most businesses not accepting cash? Or is it possible and likely that some will not only survive but grow? Or that new ones will grow out of the corpses of the old?

Why would crypto-currently NOT be the future? Of course it will be. Only a complete ludite can’t see it. But will the governments of the world control it instead of the de-centralized dream it sprang from? Who knows. Probably.

I’m just here to make money from what it is right now.

Today is 1 of those days…or maybe I should the last few hours are…or really the last 15 months are…when I feel like my brain is melting. So much stuff running around in it.

Lats year at this time, I’d go to my trading group chat and laugh (or worry) at the latest China/pandemic/Trump/guvmint crap. Or were we still all in it together then?

For the past 6..7..8 years? Or more? I’ve gone to this trading group in off-trading hours to laugh. Or snicker. Always a great group. Weird assholes most of them to be sure. But great.

But then last week, after I had a crappy 8 weeks of trading, I said I was going to probably take a short break. Re-group. And received a shitty response from the owner. Oh. ok. Fuck you.

I logged in to feel the camaraderie. It was fun. Even when we were losing money lol. But f off – I don’t need your shitty attitude. Bummer is some of the other people there immediately chimed in to my defense. I do like this group so much. But really not in the mood right now.

So I’ve stayed away mostly. Meh – who cares. I checked in over the w/e during crypto carnage. And again tonight. And what the F am I reading tonight? FFS.

Proof I do need a break. From everything online. Sometimes I think writing or talking about it get it out of my system and I’ll feel better. But this seems to stick.

Home project I’ve wanted done for like…8 years is done today! Shades in my “Half Moon” windows at the front of the house. There are a few hours of every day for a few months out of the year when the sun BURNS into the house and now I will BLOCK IT OUT! So happy.

But this meant the installers were here for about 90 minutes = guys, ladders, drilling. Smokey was NOT happy. He stayed next to me and kept an eye on them. They were 2 very polite young men and loved both Star Wars and dogs so I think he figured out it was OK. LoL. But even though he didn’t try to eat anyone, the stress of these types of things takes a toll. And he he gets older, I think it’s a bigger toll.

I took him out fir a walk as soon as they left to go see his friends and we saw 3 of them and he liked that. But he still followed me around the house until I finally took a shower and sat down. He’s such a goof. But he is who he is. That will not change. That old dogs, new tricks thing. It’s a real thing. He’s now having a nice treat while I have a glass of bubbly – bottle was opened from over the weekend – not letting that go to waste!

I wish he didn’t stress so much. After days with serious changes in routine, he needs a night of me just sitting here with him. So I will catch up on Bad Batch, watch crypto go up and down…and up and down…and let him settle back into his calm state.

Ok…so last week’s Grey’s Anatomy was a repeat from a million years ago. When the show was good. But it put me in a funk. Of remembering when the show was good. And the show wasn’t all Covid. And life wasn’t all Covid.

Just started watching this week’s ep, and yet another “old” character is leaving. So they play flashbacks. From when life wasn’t all Covid. Or whatever the F.

And Friends is coming back! Well…a reunion episode which will make me cry. Not even going to try not to.

But my friends are not going to be here to watch it or for the holiday next weekend. Well…1 of them might be. But not sure. All I know is , kids are monsters. STOP reproducing. Too many humans on the face of the earth as it is. FFS.

Life is weird.

Back to/still/always hating 2021. For many reasons. Some I’ve already written about and seems like stupid to repeat myself over and over.

I hate that my once peaceful haven of Truckee/Tahoe has been overrun with bay area transplants and vacationers (every day…must be nice to get those stimmys.) I hate you. All of you. I truly wish the ‘rona on you. Not even kidding. I truly think we are changed forever. And it wasn’t a gradual change that happens to society over years or even decades. It was a fucking Chinese fucking virus that fucking Democrats used for their own benefit. The same fear porn fucks who wears masks when alone in the car left the bay area or wherever shithole they come from to go to small towns and RUIN THEM FOREVER.

I hate that I cannot take a vacation (multiple reasons.) But I also hate that any place I would take a vacation has been overrun the same way we have. It frankly sounds sucky and not worth my time, stress or money. Will that ever change and go back to normal? Not this year – that is for sure.

I hate a lot of other things but never mind.

The thing I hate the most is that Smokey gets older every day right in front of me. It seems that this winter he just started aging daily. It makes me so sad. Happy that he seems happy with our walks, his treats, seeing his friends. But sad that he moves a lot slower, seems to get tired easily, not as excited about things.

I truly just hate 2021. I’ll take 2020 any day.

Well…probably not “little” but perhaps

Whole house A/C installed!! Took 3 days of guys banging and banging and banging for what seemed like 8 hours straight each day. This greatly stressed out Smokey who has been exhausted each evening because he has not been able to nap since Sunday. But I spent $25k to keep him cool – hopefully he will forgive me lol.

Last year, during the “pandemic”, trading was crazy. Put away $50k ($25k to AC and $25k to taxes – fu guvmint) for this. It took this long since then to get the contractor bid, scheduled, re-scheduled due to parts delay, re-scheduled due to snow and finally installed.

While I wish I would never need it because it would never be warm enough (or smoky enough from fires), I am so, so happy to have it now.

I love Star Wars Day. Or May the Fourth be With You day. And I love how it’s become part of “normal” people culture and not just us nerds :)

Realized today that I have never really celebrated with friends though. We don’t have movie marathons, dress up in our t-shirts and assorted nerd flair, or make themed foods. Of course, I live far away from most of my friends and none of them would make that effort to come up then. Only on Hallmark holidays I guess.

And I stopped making the effort to go down to the bay area for events. I did it for Force Awakens, Rise of Skywalker and Solo. Was supposed to for Rogue One but the tickets got messed up. Also met friends mid-way for 2 Marvel releases. Not to mention Twilight. I’m done.

I did get bummed about it today though. It’s been a shit year (and continues to be so). So I am easily bummed out lately it seems.

Plus the contractors are here installing my A/C. Which is great. BUT, the noise being made ALL DAY long is in complete contrast to what I am used to at home. I want to hit someone. And Smokey hates it so he is pacing. Non-stop.

Didn’t even buy much merch. Not so much released this year either. Bought 1 POP and pre-ordered the Sideshow statue I have been waiting for. Although I did spend a gob of cash on Topps digital app for limited edition cards. But I love the trading so whatevs. Stayed up till past midnight last night to complete the “base” special edition collection. And then today is stuff all day. That’s been fun at least.

I wonder how early I can make up some Star Wars-inspired drinks…

Just watched this past week’s Law & Order: SVU. All about a lady who blows a gasket during lockdowns. The main takeaway is that she ran a business, took care of her family, her customers, her employees, etc but never took care of herself. And she was sure that this is the way it should be. And that there is no one to take care of her – even for a little bit.

Life. That is my life. Has always been my life.

HIGHlariosly, 2 of Smokey’s neighborhood pals were both diagnosed with kennel cough this past week. So we can’t go see them because LOCKDOWN! Jeebus – even for dogs. The funny thing is, they are hanging out together, playing, families had dinner tonight – while both are “quarantined”. But I can’t take Smokey by – which is one of his favorite things – because of some bs virus. They sent me a pic saying we miss you. Oh. Ok. But I need to worry about him. Take care of him. He’s older – so not dealing with risk.

I’m sure I am not the only one feeling this way…still. Plenty of people out there in that same position/condition of sadness. Although I think more and more “seem” to be going back to normal-ish. But not me. Not because I have rona-fear, just what we are “allowed” to do is nothing I care to do. And the things I want to do – still in lockdown mode. And at this point, not leaving Smokey.

But at some point you are just tired. Not grab a gun like the lady in SVU tired because that seems (while understandable) a bit much. But tired. Every day.