a99kitten's Musings

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In my mission to stay off “social media” (twitter, FB) I downloaded the Topps Disney card app. I’ve had the Star Wars version for years, although had stopped even opening it for years. But I did it. Downloaded the Disney one, opened the SW one and now I am addicted to collecting “cards”.

Now…I have a crate sitting upstairs in my space bedroom of the ACTUAL physical Topps Star Wars trading cards from when I was a kid and collected them. I have been meaning to put them in binders – be able to look at them. Sigh…on that project list…

But in the meantime I am addicted to clicking on claim this pack and trading up cards to different ones and whatever I need to do to get the rare ones. Short of paying…but I know the minute that ultra rare Chewbacca or Uncle Scrooge McDuck shows up as a possibility in a pack… I do not know how they make money on this. But I guess if a ton of people think paying $0.99 for packs for that possibility of the rare version do it regularly? Oh…did I mention…you can sell the rare ones on eBay because of course you can.

Finally watched this movie and it was cute. I didn’t think it was as good as the first Ralph but it was cute. Best part was all the Disney “cameos”. Those were fun. But not sure if the morale of the story of “the girl needs to not always be attached to friend – a male friend obvs – and search for her own thing – which in this case is rolling with a street gang that commits crime…” is the best but ok.

Altho if the internet broke…would that really be such a bad thing? Really? I mean sure – I use it daily and love the convenience in some things for sure but I tried to stay off my computer, internet and especially social media this past Fri-Mon and did a 99% decent job. And let me say – it was glorious. Social media is toxic. Humans are toxic. Allow humans on social media – ugh.

I’ll be working on leaving social media more and more. It’s clear that unity = conformity in our new magical, glorious world and I say F U to that mentality anyway. I’ll still use it (Instagram) to post happy pics of Smokey because the world always needs more pics of cute animals. And maybe pics of toys. And monitor my FinTwit lists on twitter during market hours. But that’s probably it.

I will post here as my “diary”. This allows me to vomit out my thoughts. But since I am posting no links to this blog – and not allowing comments from the unwashed masses – seems ok.

But otherwise – F y’all (I really hate the usage of y’all unless you were born and bred in the south…)

I just finished S1 of Rebels – OMG! Why did I not watch this before?? The tie-ins for Mando, Clone Wars, THE MOVIES, THE BOOKS!

I simply cannot believe how awful I am for not watching Clone Wars or Rebels as they ran. I mean…I guess not watching Clone Wars until this final S7 was released last year was OK but man – SO GOOD!!!!! And now they ALL tie in to the The Mandalorian and the books (started Heir to the Empire).

GAH! SO GOOD!

Also…cannot help but compare the Empire’s drastic overreach on Lothal to the Democrats. But #nopolitics.

Finished my 2020 P/L today along with my weekly P/L. Needed to finalize 2020 tax planning. Always a fun Saturday when taxes are involved. Plus did some crypto trades today (24/7…yay…sonofa…)

Did well in 2020. But I think a blind monkey just banging on his keyboard could have made money this year. But I’m very thankful to have done as well as I did. Of course, now I am convinced of a market crash – like everyone – which is why it won’t happen quite yet I suppose. But need to stay on my toes. This week beat my 2nd best week last year by $90 (realized trades) – lol. I’ll take it. Did a LOT of trades. My long term positions did well for the most part. I did sell some $TSLA because it’s just. so . high.

Supposedly, the next 2 weeks are traditionally awful (although I have not looked up those stats.) And monthly opex is Friday and that always seems to mess with stuff. So we’ll see how it goes. Add a few crypto stock plays in AH on Friday on a hunch – hoping I’m not smacked upside the head on those.

Crypto trading is fun. Although only doing small trades. I still had my BTC, ETH, LTC and XRP from 2017 buys. All that is in cold storage. HODL! Luckily, I also started building a trading position in 2018 in BTC and ETH after the crash so I sold a 1/3 portion of that BTC this week to free up some trading cash. And have been buying BCH and OXT. Just sold all of my BCH for a nice win. Adding to OXT here.

Sadly, I should have been adding a lot more to my ETH. Seems like it can do well % wise this year if the crypto run continues.

Sometimes you have no one to talk to. You realize your friends – while you love them – are not like you. And that’s OK. Except when you need to unload. And Smokey has no interest in hearing it :)

But sometimes, I just want to shut down all social media. All text convos. Anything. Because I cannot believe you are so fn stupid. I just have no patience anymore. Would rather ignore you at this point. Sad but true. Thankfully I get over things quick. And by getting over I mean, I simply don’t care about you bit by bit.

Think I will go back to logging thoughts here. Not sharing these pages – who cares. But cathartic to type it out.

F**********************************************CK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is all.

…have a bizarre sense of humor.

Friday and today were absolutely excellent trading days for me. My trading account hit an all-time high today. Excellent moves/sales in TWTR and GPRO calls bought last week, sold LC also from last week and sold my UWTI position +5% that I was down 20% just a short time ago. And I jumped in and out of the monster that is TWLO for a very nice win. Was feeling pretty happy….so naturally AH decided to take me down a peg…

I bought some HAIN calls last week (have had a small stock position in my 401k for a long time) as it started running. I *ALMOST* sold the position as a quick in/out trade on Friday as it really heated up but then didn’t. Got greedy and thought maybe they really DO announce an acquisition over the weekend. And then when nothing was announced – almost sold AGAIN this AM. Still up on position. But nooooooo….the greed devil on my shoulder said “hey they are September calls…hold them a little longer….” Sigh…It’s a small position but make some VERY annoyed. Since I ignored myself TWICE to sell. Gah.

HAIN came out after hours today and announced reporting/financial issues. Always a winner. Stock tanked about 25%. Yay. I will likely add to my LT position at these levels (maybe) but those calls should be nice and worthless. Grrrr. Hate that greed devil.

The stock market gods giveth, the stock market gods taketh away. Back to work to make that back….

AT SDCC this year I was in Ballroom 20 all day Saturday for OUAT and the CW Hero block. They were really why I wanted to be in there. I have been in B20 for the OUAT panel almost every year because it always proceeds something else I want to see. Now, I do watch OUAT but for the past 2 years, I have not watched it during the season and then I remember that I really like the show and binge watch it through the summer. I like it but there are so many other things to watch and I have limited time to do it in (need to upload SO much content to my brain!) And sometimes the storylines get a but silly. But that’s OK – it’s fairy tales!

But, just like every other year when I sit through the panel, I walk away loving the cast and wanting to watch the show immediately! So when I got back from SDCC, I made it my mission to catch up on this season before the new eps starts in Sept. And I just finished the last episode last night. I LOVED this season! Loved it!

The thing about OUAT is it depends very hard on the “True Love Trumps All” mantra and sometimes it gets a bit goofy. And to be honest, my favorite characters are Rumple and Regina :) And they were great as usual this season!

I thought the forced lesbian storyline of Red and Dorothy was dumb. If you want to introduce a gay character/storyline, do it over time. Not just BOOM in your face in 2 episodes. Seemed forced and I think perhaps an overreaction to politics. But whatever.

Thought the Hades storyline was fun. I LOVE Arthurian tales so that was an interesting take on the whole storyline (and the nod to the Connecticut Yankee was cute.) More info on the Dark Ones was great. And I pretty much loved that Gold finally made Belle realize that she likes him BECAUSE of his dark side, not in spite of it. Because I’ve been saying that all along! When he was no longer the Dark One – he went back to being the scared weakling he was before. And no one really likes that. I don’t care what they say. And his dealing with his ex-wife – heh. Loved that.

And now I am VERY excited to watch the new season!

I’ve been collecting Star Wars and some superhero stuff since I was a kid. And kept most of it pretty good condition. When I moved form FL to CA when I was 18, my Mom boxed up my stuff and stored it in the garage until I moved it out to me in CA. In FL. Hot and humid Florida. In a garage with no climate control. Thanks Mom :/ But most survived ok. Sigh.

I’ve added to my Star Wars collection over the years but never completed my vintage action figures. Most of mine were loose as I displayed them in scenes with the vehicles and playsets in my room. Further evidence that it was not only boys that liked Star Wars. But I also did not care 1 little bit that there were very few female characters. I hate feminazis. Give me a damn break.

I’ve lately gotten back into wanting to complete not only my loose collection ( I think I need about 20 more to have all 92) but also a 12-back, cardback A run. And then also the other Han and Chewies on all card backs. And the Hoth figures. And the final 17 POTF lines. And. And. And…(yes it will likely never end really!)

Over the years, I used to just read some of the websites about collecting. And in the olden days…read the magazines about it :) There are far more websites now along with tons of FB groups that have tons of info!

I also collect Funko. It started with a Chewbacca POP from SDCC (the flocked one which now can cost you $1500+ on eBay – doh!) and now I have 1000+ POPs plus items from their other lines. I started collecting Funko a few years back and had noticed some snobbiness from the “older” collectors who felt we were all noobs. There was some definite cliqueness and I’m sure it turned some people away from the main Funko blog. When I was at my first Funko Fundays at SDCC there were several people at my table who were talking about they felt “blocked out” from the old school members on the blog. OK. Whatever. I have never allowed myself to be affected by stuff like that. But yes – I did notice it as well.

Ironically, I was asked to be a moderator on the Funko blog and it’s been a great time (after the coup and drama and holy hell what (^(&* just happened few days that we had.) I’ve had dealings with a lot of new collectors but also some of the old school members and have certainly not felt any weirdness. Some of the older members and moved away from the blog and only participate on the FB groups. And complain a lot apparently. Oh well – I stay away from high school drama.

But now the more time I spend on the Star Wars blogs and FB groups, I notice the SAME THING. The older collectors (and frankly I have been collecting the original toys and other stuff since 1978 so I am as original as they come) complain about the “newer” collectors run prices up, only want AFA-graded (and then go on to bag on that), have too much money to spend, ruin the hobby, etc etc. Sigh…

Come on man – these are TOYS! We collect them because they are fun and we love them. Yes – they can be valuable so we take care of them and treasure them. But jeebus man – the drama that ensues in ridiculous and tiring. I’m sure the same thing happens in trading cards, comics, sports memorabilia, etc etc. But sheesh.

BUT, at SDCC the year, I found a vinyl-cape Jawa. I have been wanting this guy and was at the booth for quite awhile discussing toys with the owner and the other booth workers. And wow – the collecting stories were GREAT! I think I had some of the most fun at SDCC this year at that booth listening to these stories. And THAT’S what I want collecting to be.

I live in the boonies so I don’t have a local comic book store or access to many brick and mortar toy stores. And sadly, my friends don’t collect like I do and I’m sure they get bored listening to me talk about it. So I depend on the internet lot. So I will continue to read the blogs and FB groups and will likely see more drama and snide comments. For both Funko and Star Wars.

But my collection is growing and it makes me happy. And that’s the point, right? :)

One of my neighbor’s dogs passed away this morning. He was rushed to the ER in Reno Wednesday night and it turns out he had the same issue that Angelus died from. An “aggressive tumor” on his spleen that ruptured and bled out. The dog loses so much blood into their abdomen and too quickly to replenish. They gave him a blood transfusion and after he stabilized yesterday, they removed his spleen. But he was still critical. I just learned of it last night as they have been at the vet this whole time until they came home for some rest last night.

With Angelus, he had just had his annual physical, was 100% healthy and acting the crazy husky he always was. There was 1 instance of him waking up in the middle of the night with a yelp. It was about 2 weeks before he died. I woke up, looked for any injuries and he was fine. But he seemed off. Not terribly – but off. I took him to the vet and we thought maybe he tweaked his leg in the middle of the night or something because they couldn’t find a single thing wrong with him. I wonder if the tumor had a small tear then.

Later, my vet acknowledged that it could have been that. But 2 weeks for it to fully rupture with him acting normal would be pretty long so unlikely. But I will always wonder. And that I should have delved more into it. But I was in the middle of an office move and was so busy and tired – I figured he was fine. Like he always was. I will never forgive myself for that. Or anything else associated with that stupid office move.

But my vet (who knew Angelus since 8 weeks) said statistically, the dog would have more tumors. And if they make it through the spleen removal, then you have other decisions to make. And if Angelus would have been sick, confined to bed rest after surgeries or chemo or just plain not doing well – he would have hated that. I know that.

With Tucker, the dog next door, he was much younger than Angelus. And I feel so bad for his parents. They have a bit of a situation like I did – Angelus was the healthy 1 and Stormy was the one with health issues we were always worried about. They have an older dog who I know they have been worried about. So the shock that comes with this is what hurts even more.

I remember when they brought him home, after losing their oldest Golden. He was a good friend to Angelus and Storm but he has been an even better one to Smokey. Tucker and his older brother Jameis were Smokey’s first friends after I brought him home. He met them out in the back forest and instantly took to them. He *always* ran up to them as soon as he saw them. He could smell when they were abut to come outside if we were already out and would pull towards their door. Tucker, being a Golden, was a food hound. And he always ran to me first because he knew I had the cookies. But he was a sweet boy who was always just a giant wagging tail.

And the weird thing is the past 2 days Smokey has been pulling towards their house and whining even though they weren’t outside. It’s like he could sense something was wrong. I really never doubt animal senses anymore. They know a lot more than humans in some ways.

Rose Kennedy (NOT my favorite family but she certainly experienced loss) said something that in my opinion is 100% fact…

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”

I know they are very sad today. I remember feeling numb. And sick. And there is simply nothing anyone can say to make you feel better in any way. Time is the only thing that helps. We lose our furry friends way too quickly.

Between our beloved fur-kids that die young, species being hunted to extinction and kids with cancer or other life-ending diseases but then pedophiles, rapists, terrorists and murders walking around hurting/killing others and people like Charles Manson STILL breathing on the government tit, what other proof do you need that life is simply not set up to be fair. Ever.