Indy has been a wonderful, happy addition to my life. For sure. He’s such a lovable goof. And he makes me smile every day. Also.. makes me extremely tired. lol
But I still think of Smokey every day. I still get sad every day. I try not to. But I do. Sometimes just a little sad. Other days, a lot.
I feel like when I am happy and having fun with Indy, I am being…I don’t know the right word…disrespectful?
I also know that is silly. Smokey had a long, happy life. But the loss was great.
I miss that smile. That low ah-roo. That calm, constant presence in my life. Indy is a spaz. As he is supposed to be at 2 years old. But here he is sleeping, after a fun day, and I watch him smile in his sleep. Just like I did with Smokey. And Angelus. And Stormy. And even Shadow. And it makes me smile.
They are all always in my heart. But Smokey is still very much fresh in my memory banks. And I still find myself calling Indy Smokey.
It’s very hard. But we are working it out.
But I miss my guy.
