For the past couple months I have been eating small, pre-packaged salads that are between 260-310 calories for lunch. I don’t snack. Never have been much of a snacker. I generally make healthy dinners and only splurge when I go out to eat which isn’t often because I don’t want the extra calories. And I like easy lunches anyway.
It’s bikini season. I get it. It’s fine and I don’t hate it when I feel it is MY choice. I like to be thin. And feel thin. But if I feel someone thinks I’m fat, or needs to lose weight…well…you can exit the f*&%^*&# door pal. I do not need you.
Today I offered husband one of my salads as he was starving and didn’t have time to get lunch. I had an extra salad and I was being nice. He ate it.
We got home around 8:30 or so tonight and I started dinner as soon as we got home and I proceeded to do the million things I have to do. As I’m doing them, husband says “I like it when you get home earlier than I do and….” I stop and look at him, waiting for him to finish the sentence I know is stuck hanging there. He realizes his mistake and finishes “…then we get to eat earlier and hang out and watch TV or something.” I smile and say “don’t you mean I get home earlier and have dinner ready and waiting for you when you get home?” Umm…well…yeah…that is GREAT! he says. Fantasy punch one.
Dinner is almost ready. Husband says I am so starving. Those tiny salads aren’t enough food. I say welcome to my and Stormy’s world (Storm is always hungry!) He says well, it’s different for you. You shouldn’t be hungry. Again…stop what I’m doing…why is that I ask. Well…you are smaller than I am. And a girl. Yes to both of those I say but do you think that 300 calories is enough food for ANYONE to last all day long and not be starving well past dinner time??
Well…I don’t know he says. Fantasy punch 2.
He is so &^%#^@&@*@)@)frackin’ lucky I have some form of self control and haven’t smacked him in the head with a frying pan yet….
Maybe I’m too sensitive…but really? Now I am sitting here while I have another SVT episode/heart racing. I am definitely starting to see a stress correlation….
9:42 pm on June 21st, 2010
maybe he was going to say how he likes when you’re home earlier because….he knows your safer at home than out. Especially with those dogs, who’s gonna mess with you.
Don’t make him feel TOO awkward. I can understand how you feel about your self image and how you don’t want anyone, EVEN HIM, telling your different. But, try not to engage him like that, you’ll only hurt him.
…..fill in more manlier comments after this line……
9:49 pm on June 21st, 2010
:)
You give him a lot of credit (man-code! ;) )
10:52 pm on June 21st, 2010
Methinks you are being too sensitive – I didn’t read someone saying anything about having the laundry done or the floors polished or the martinis chilled.
Oh and 300 calories a day? welcome to my (nightmare) world. :P
5:47 am on June 22nd, 2010
chalk it up to the “temporary insanity” defense because he hadn’t eaten yet.
and he finds comfort in you having dinner ready for him – because it’s something he’s used to.
as for your meager salads – how about keeping some protein on hand to prevent the wobblies? maybe some almonds in your desk – you can sprinkle those onto your salad. or some low fat cheese. protein! Hmmm…do your poochies like almonds as well? ;)
take care! hope you feel better.
11:00 am on June 22nd, 2010
He can’t say anything about those things because they are already done (except the martinis that is..) Boys love to stick together ;)
11:09 am on June 22nd, 2010
Oh, I don’t typically get too-too hungry until nearing dinner time. And the salads have chicken in them. Plus I do have string cheese for when I am hungry. My heart racing is caused by my SVT, not lack of food :)
Buds aren’t allowed to have almonds (or any nuts or chips) as they are too small and can choke on them. The only human food they are really allowed is meat and cheese (except for that pizza Angelus stole years ago!)
12:49 pm on June 22nd, 2010
Ha – boys are boys – it’s that fraternity mentality – we never seem to be able to get past the pledge/hazing stage.
As far as the SVT/stress correlation – do you meditate (not the flowerpower/dirtyhippie opitate kind) or have the chance to step away from the world for 30 minutes or so? I know it is much easier said than done, but once I took it up many years ago, it really changed my life.
1:05 pm on June 22nd, 2010
Well, I’ve always viewed my morning husky outside time as my “mental health” time :) And yesterday I did not get that due to leaving Tahoe early to head back down to the Bay Area/work. Further proof (as if I needed it) that my boys are the best :)
5:33 pm on June 22nd, 2010
I’m surprised he hasn’t received a real one (I guess girls stick together too).
5:38 am on June 23rd, 2010
whoops – I didn’t know that about almonds (my bad!)
What helps your SVT? Is it rest? Quiet time? How often do you get attacks? Take care.
10:48 am on June 23rd, 2010
When they occur, I am supposed to lie down. Hopefully they go away on their own. They typically are very short (5-10 mins) but every so often I get one that lasts longer. I’ve gone to the emergency room twice as they lasted hours/all night (they chastised at me for waiting so long – oops) and I’ve had to get the medication for it once (which is AWFUL) and if that doesn’t work they have to use the de-fib (let’s avoid that!)
But there is no “for sure positive” trigger that causes them or to avoid. Like SH** – they just happen :)
7:17 am on June 24th, 2010
I’m sorry to hear that – hopefully you won’t get another attack. And I’m sure having Angelus and Storm helps keep your stress level down. ;)
take care
2:04 pm on June 24th, 2010
Oh, I get a couple/few per year. No big deal :)
My boys are the best stress relievers (when I’m not all stressed about their health and catching cats and squirrels! ;) )