I’ve been doing my best at staying upbeat and positive. No good comes of getting sad or depressed but sometimes it does squeeze through.
Storm’s blood work showed very, very elevated liver enzymes after his annual vet visit and blood work on Thursday. So on Friday he got an ultrasound. I was in there with him to keep him calm and got to see all of his insides! Pretty crazy really. And the good news is, besides his liver, the rest of his insides look good. But his liver does not. Four of his 6 nodes look “irregular”. Now, as a non-doctor, a lot of his ultrasound looks like black and white squiggles. But once the doctor points things out, you can see the difference between normal and not.
So he has an ultrasound-guided biopsy scheduled with a specialist tomorrow (Monday) at 10am. And I am very stressed. It can be a list of things that are wrong. Most of them treatable. But of course malignant tumor and cancer are also part of that list.
On Friday I was broken. I cried. I was sad all night. But the boys can sense sadness so I knocked that crap off and Saturday we had a great morning beach walk and Sunday too. Much skooshing and treats too. But now that Sunday is coming to a close, and I have to remember not to feed him anything after 10pm pre-op/biopsy for Monday AM, I am getting sad again. I should probably just go to sleep early. So that I can avoid the sadness.
Hopefully tomorrow goes OK. Storm is tough little guy. He is asymptomatic for any kind of liver disease, so that is good. And I will be there to do whatever we need to do to make sure he is OK. I remember when he crawled into my lap when we went to see him with his Mom, when he was 7.5 weeks old. It’s why I took him home. He chose me. And I’m glad he did. He chose a family that had the ability, time/money/willingness, to take care of him. He deserves that. He is a sweet little guy who loves his Momma.
But I don’t see a good night’s sleep in my horizon. But I’m glad he doesn’t know. He will sleep just fine, feet in the air and snoring :)
6:40 am on September 20th, 2010
Although super-stressful, you are doing the right thing in trying to find out what is going on with him. Sleep? it’s totally overrated. BTW, that’s a great picture. :)
8:59 am on September 20th, 2010
I am sending you good thoughts! Positive and healing thoughts for Storm. You have a warrior spirit and so does Storm! I hope it all goes well. Take care! *hugs*
6:51 am on September 25th, 2010
Ohman, I’m so glad he’s ok. Even while reading backwards (finally, some reliable internetz), this post made me very sad because I know how much you love the buddies. Can’t wait to see them on Monday – I wonder if they missed me? I’ll give extra treats to ensure that they did :)
1:55 pm on September 26th, 2010
It was a very stressful week frankly. Last Friday was quite suck-ish but this past Friday was a much better day :) Still some stressful stuff to deal with but knowing the tumor is benign is a huge weight lifted.
They are the best boys :)