Day started fine. Woke up, made some trades, made a little money, worked on projects, did a ride – felt pretty ok.
Had to hit up the grocery store before the combo of snow and the weekend aka tourist hell. It’s actually really weird to leave my house in a car without Smokey. So I get sad every single time. And then Safeway was a hellhole and the amount of skier assholes in there was fn ridiculous. I hate it here now.
Then I had to get gas. I’ve put it off for almost 2 weeks – luckily I don’t go anywhere. You’d think the stupid amount of money you spend at the pump would be the sad part of the trip. But no. As I was there, a jeep pulled up with a husky mix in the front. I recognized him. And then the guy called him Smokey. Yep – he was the dog my Smokey played with a few times at the park. They had the best time running around the forest the first time they met. K….kept it together.
Came home, put everything away and decided to do a walk to get outside and clear my head. My walking partner neighbor is out of town so it would be alone. My first walk alone since losing Smokey. Decided to do a Peloton Outside walk so I was not “alone”. Was going along fine – fun. Then I saw the fucking piece of shit asshole who lives in our neighborhood who has 2 vicious fuckhead dogs. Dogs who have lunged at my dogs since Angelus and Storm. Dogs who attacked Smokey multiple times. Dogs who I reported to the police.
Without Smokey, I went ahead and crossed the street and kept doing my Peloton Outside walk and ignored them. This fn guy lets his dogs go out on their extend-o leashes as they were snarling and barking (as they do to everyone, every time) and inches away from me. Like…WHAT THE FUCK. So I stopped and looked at him and flipped him off in his face and kept walking. The next time, I am taking my phone out and videoing the encounter. And then telling him I am reporting to the cops again. Fn asshole.
Then home, calmed myself down, put everything away from store and mail, looked for a new hoodie online, did household junk and then took a shower. Started dinner and played my trading games while cooking. Then saw I had a boatload of FB notifications so opened the app to clear it and see if missed a birthday. FIRST FN THING ON THE SCREEN is an awful/sad dog related post on out locals FB page. I immediately closed the app. I do not know what the post was about – just that is started out – first 2 lines – awfully and had a pics of a dog. Did not need to read anything more to know it was awful and would make me even sadder.
The last time I opened FB, same thing happened. I think this is a sign to delete this from my phone. I can not handle this crap right now. And possibly ever. All that is going through my head right now is what happened. But I refuse to look. Because I will cry.
Truly exhausted right this second. I want to just go to bed and curl up but not sleepy exhausted. Just exhausted. I hate everything.
So yeah, F 2022.
