{"id":11049,"date":"2022-02-05T21:57:14","date_gmt":"2022-02-06T04:57:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/?p=11049"},"modified":"2022-02-05T22:45:36","modified_gmt":"2022-02-06T05:45:36","slug":"im-not","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/?p=11049","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m not.."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Just when I think I might be a little bit better, I realize that I am not. At all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>4 weeks ago I was at the vet all day with Smokey. 4 weeks and 1 day ago, everything was great.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I do not even remember Saturday night 4 weeks ago. I remember bringing him home after 6pm. I remember he was sedated and I wanted him to sleep. Hopefully getting rest so his body would heal. Even a little.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I remember coming home. And I remember setting up camp on the sofa to watch him all night.  But what did I do all evening? Did I skoosh him? Did I tell him I loved him? I don&#8217;t know. All I am doing is crying right now. Why didn&#8217;t I just lay down with him all evening? And all night? Was I hoping that all would be better in the morning? I knew better. What the fuck did I do? I want to throw up. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Just when I think I might be a little bit better, I realize that I am not. At all. 4 weeks ago I was at the vet all day with Smokey. 4 weeks and 1 day ago, everything was great. But I do not even remember Saturday night 4 weeks ago. I remember bringing him [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[543],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11049","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11049","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11049"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11049\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11052,"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11049\/revisions\/11052"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11049"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11049"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/a99kitten.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11049"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}